30 days of truth…Day 1

I’ve seen quite a few people in the blogs that I follow do this thing called “30 days of truth” and I really like reading them. I think it’s an interesting way to learn little things here and there about the person, but some of the questions really make you think, so I think it’s also a good way to really reflect on myself as well as entertain my readers. I’m not expecting to have this crazy life changing moment where I “find myself” (I hate when people use that term!) but I think it will be interesting nonetheless. So here’s the list, and I will try to do each day consecutively (hopefully!) along with my regular blogging.

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.

Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Sounds easy enough, right? Here goes nothing…

Day 1- Something you hate about yourself. Wow, what a great way to start! Haha. Ok, something I hate about myself is my sensitivity to sound. I don’t know if it’s like an OCD thing or what, but I can’t stand loud noises and it’s a constant battle for me. It’s extremely hard to deal with especially when I have two small children who like to make a lot of noise! Like right now for instance, as I type this Lily is in her room singing at the top of her lungs. Sounds like a pretty normal thing for a 3 year old to do, right? And while it’s adorable, it’s so distracting for me and I can’t think about anything other than how loud she is! I also have a hard time talking on the phone because I have to have it completely silent while I do it…I mute the TV, have to tell the kids repeatedly to be quiet, and I usually hang up very frustrated because any noise whatsoever is extremely distracting when I’m trying to have a phone conversation. I don’t know how to get over this, but it’s something I just have to deal with I guess. 

Well that was easy! Stay tuned for day 2 tomorrow.

I’m recovering from surgery just fine. I’m still super sore but it’s getting easier to move and get up from laying down. I have to take it easy for a while still and the doctor said no housework for awhile and no lifting anything heavier than a gallon of milk. I guess laundry baskets are off limits then. I’m having an extremely hard time with this whole “not doing anything” thing. I’m not a lazy person and I’m usually cleaning constantly. Last night the kitchen mess was getting to me. Just think of the horror…dishes stacked up in the sink for days! No no no! I can’t handle that. I got up and cleaned the entire kitchen and did all the dishes. I think I overdid it because I definitely felt it when I was laying down later. I was shaking and I just felt weird. Shayne pointed out that not only did I break the rules and clean the kitchen, but I also didn’t eat much yesterday either. I think all I had was coffee, cadbury eggs, a pepsi, and eggrolls. Not a healthy diet, right? So I forced myself to eat some yogurt with strawberries, a glass of juice, and a fruity popsicle and I felt much better. Today I’m taking it easy again and I’m laid up on the couch with the laptop and remote. I got Ayden off to school and besides that I’m not doing anything, even though I cringe every time I see the laundry baskets getting full. I need to just breathe and let things go and remember I should be back to my normal self in another week or so and I can do all the cleaning I want after that! Right now I just need to focus on resting and healing…and plenty of blogging.